It does make sense, cat. I don't want to give up, and it does feel like that is exactly what I am doing when I get close to detaching. Like after her letter, I dropped the rope and it really felt like that was it, we were done. Maybe that was in part why she sent the text of regret. I will have to drop the rope again and not pick it up right away.
I am glad you brought up the enemy. Many may not realize what he is capable of. I am. I have actually had dealings with him while in the seminary during my formation for ordination. I know what he is capable of. I read once that his greatest trick was convincing us he doesn't exist. I pray the prayer to St. Michael every day because of this. (Also because he is the patron saint of police officers)

I have learned a lot about myself, and have more to learn, but I am a better person since this began (even W thinks so) and will continue to improve.


Me-40
W-41
Together-10
M-8
S-6
S-4
Bomb 5/08
Bomb 10/08
Thought things were better, was wrong.
Still living together
Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.