It does make sense, cat. I don't want to give up, and it does feel like that is exactly what I am doing when I get close to detaching. Like after her letter, I dropped the rope and it really felt like that was it, we were done. Maybe that was in part why she sent the text of regret. I will have to drop the rope again and not pick it up right away. I am glad you brought up the enemy. Many may not realize what he is capable of. I am. I have actually had dealings with him while in the seminary during my formation for ordination. I know what he is capable of. I read once that his greatest trick was convincing us he doesn't exist. I pray the prayer to St. Michael every day because of this. (Also because he is the patron saint of police officers)
I have learned a lot about myself, and have more to learn, but I am a better person since this began (even W thinks so) and will continue to improve.
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.