Glad you are talking to the priest. I just don't want to see you doing anything I know you would regret, especially as I know you are a man of faith. But that being said, we all need to remember that we are human and when we are weak, the enemy will tempt us to no end. So just keep using those spiritual tools. They are very important.
I remember you saying unresolved stuff from first M and the dreams tell me you are looking for some sort of resolution.
I am glad you use this place to vent. Do you ever go back and read what you wrote? Sometimes it takes that to really help us see our own stuff. As if you were reading someone else's words. It also helps us to see how far we have come in our journey and what we may still need to work on.
You have learned so much about yourself already and that will continue. One thing that is said by a lot of people about MLC, is that the sooner the LBS learns what they need to, the sooner the MLC wakes up (if they are going to). As you know, there are no guarantees, and that is why the detatching is really important. Right now, your wife is stuck, not sure what is going to make her happy, trying this, trying that, not really finding anything that works for the long term. Without the detatching, you will get stuck in that cycle and you will start doing the same thing.
For me, detatch and drop the rope are hard concepts because they sort of feel like giving up. But it doesn't have to be giving up if that isn't what you want. It is simply allowing each of you the freedom to be who you are. Maybe that will result in your being together, maybe it won't. But it allows for independence and interdepdence instead of co-dependence if that makes sense.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
