Ha! Mach! Well, if he`s usin` `em on himself he sure isnt having as much fun as me!
Just been to therapist. She had all sorts of direct things to say about H like:
-he is totally selfish -he is very rigid, narrow in his outlook -he may never come out of this -why did I marry him -he is really crazy right now so I better be VERY careful while around him -I was very enmeshed with him but have become hugely detached in the past few weeks
She is concerned that he might actually physically attack me in the next couple of week. My plan is just to lie low, stay calm, hold a calm fort here for me and the kids.
H hasn`t spoken to me since I came back yesterday evening from my lovely two days away with the kids.
I know my anxiety factor has been a trigger for his anger. I can feel that bubbling away in me all the time. I know he`s angling for a way to get at me.
I know I`m not angry anymore, just sad that things have come to this.Guilty too for my part in it.
I know life will go on for me and the kids no matter what happens.
