Last night was a strange one for sure. Just noting it as my thoughts are on it.
When I got home, W was in the kitchen, but when I was around, she was just standing around with her hands in her pockets and wouldn't even look at me.
Later, she had to run SS17 to his fathers house, and when she came back, she still wasn't talking. I didn't push or pursue, just noting this for msyelf.
She went straight to the computer and put on some headphones to do some meditation. She took them off once, to tell me there was some dinner for me, I thanked her and asked if anything else was shakin' for today. She just said, 'nothing' and put her headphones back on.
Ok, I had to try real hard not to get drawn into mind reading, etc. So, I am just doing my own thing, I can't know what she's thinking or doing, and since the whole night was odd, let her do her own thing.
It was so odd, her body language and demeanor after the last few days when she seemed to be trying to be around me, especially given that she canceled the meeting.
Oh well, now that I have written it down, I don't want to get drawn back into story telling past/future thinking mode, so got to focus on me and what I am doing today, and only in the 'now'
M: 41 STBXW: 41 D: 9 Bomb: 4/26/09
On board the D train now..
"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."
