Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

Well, she wasn't too late last night. I heard her come at around 11:15. She did say that she was going to her friend's house before she left.

An old friend of mine called me at work yesterday. He said he had just talked to my W as he accidentally called my house instead of my cell phone. They talked for nearly a 1/2 hour.

He has been D for around 7 years. His daughter still has trouble with it. It sounded like my buddy hit W pretty hard with how rough D can be and how wee really need to try to work things out. "Freaking great," thought. I was just trying to give her space after this weekend and now she's going to feel pushed into a corner again. I thought about calling and telling W that I had nothing to do with the call, but I let it go.

When I got home, she wa chatty (I used to initiate all conversations...not any more). She eventualy brought up the call with my friend. She said she really got something out of it. (didn't tell me WHAT she got out of it and I didn't ask)

It was weird. She seemed to want to talk with me last night and all I wanted to do is get the hell away from her. I don't really like conversations with her anymore. Our conversations consist of her being cold and hurtful. I leave them feeling like crap. So, even when it seems like time to talk and something good could be said, I just want to run the other way.