If any of you care to be disgusted with both my wife and me, please feel feel free to look at how hard I worked and then how I blew it.
My wife left me a year ago and ended up dating her ex-bf after we had been married several years. I tried so hard to get her back because I knew that she loved me but was the type to run away if there was a problem and she did. She ran to the safety of the dirty scum that had been there waiting on the periphery wheedling and scheming for our marriage to fail.
I was sure I could forgive her for most of a year but I lost self respect and lost vision and I started having an afair too.
Wife was always open with me that she was with someone else because she loved me but thought we were not going to make it but I lied, I tried to get her back but I saw a girl for a few weeks.
When she told me she wanted to get back together I kept it from her but the ex-husband of my OW contacted my wife out of jealousy (already divorced) and told my wife, not only about the afar but enough details meant only to hurt her, I mean really deep stuff.
As I said, I really let us both down but I wanted to be with my wife the whole time. Wife came to discuss this with me and I told her everything, this was almost a month ago and she says there is too much damage to be together now because I am a LIAR and I betrayed her etc etc. So we are back to the scenario that she gives up and I am wanting to die because I screwed up.
How do I convince her when we live so far apart, no kids that I lied because I was desperate after a year of hell and that I will never ever lie to her again? Why is this all turned over on me and I still want to save my marriage? What can I do? I told her I want to come visit her and she sees no point. She came to see me, when she needed to why is it always on her terms? I still want to save the marriage!!!! Someone Please help me!
