Well, saw counciler (LMFT) today. Introductary session. Said she wanted W to come to the next session; W said she would.
W mentioned her own counciler had talked about being careful about my feelings with the speed of this thing, though she didn't elaborate.
Feeling mellow tonight - not really seeking W out. Trying to detach. Helped with dinner, read to the kids - was engaged and all that. W is leaving tomorrow for a class reunion - was eager to put on her dress to show me, etc. She's been chatty tonight, I've been more reserved. By the end of the evening she was getting cranky though, but I think that has more to do with getting the boys to bed (tomorrow is the 1st day of school), and preparing for this trip, than having to do with me. Ah, at one point she asked me if something was wrong, I just said I was tired.
Well, she went into the bedroom and locked the door to take a shower.
She did pick up boxes of those quaker oatmeal squares that I eat for breakfast (and seems only Target has - meaning some special effort). She left a message today and started "Hey hon - oh, I can't believe I said that, habit..." Little things... not sure the significance.
Well, she doesn't want to do MC, but is making arrangements (moving things around) to go to this one session with me.
So I've got the weekend with the boys, that's good. Think I should spend a little time now detaching and "do nothing" - read. Of course, being distant or whatever was part of the complaint to begin with - but I think I need a little detachment right now.
