some fears running around today... last year at this time h had only started to come my way (was spending a few nights here with me etc) today is h's b-day...last year at this time h and ow were still in contact (though h was hiding it) and ow not only called him on his b-day but gave him a card signed love T. and no I'm not using t to shorten her name that is exactly how she signed it!!
I'd like to believe that ow is gone and she probably is..but...well...how the hell will I ever really know??? I didn't ever really know she was there in the first place until they had been seen together and by that point their r had already been going on for over a year...
I know that I can't live my life always waiting for the next time he get's "caught", but I don't know how to kick the feeling of mistrust either.
I don't even know if I have reason to be feeling this way but I do.
