Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
Hi Cas Had to log off last night as H kept hanging around walking behind when I was on the computer, I had to keep switching to ebay, got a bit hard.
No he mentioned nothing last night, walked in as normal, said Hi, had dinner and then watched TV, some small talk about me running into someone at the supermarket I was at cardiac rehab with but apart from that silence.
At least he isn't sitting there with a scowl on his face now.
He has just left for work, as usual kissed me and hugged me and said see you tonight, can't work it out.
Who knows what today will hold. It's like I wake up each morning and the first thing I think of is the sitch, it would be lovely to wake up and only have positive happy things to think about as soon as I wake, maybe I need to work on that side of me.
Picking up the packing boxes tomorrow, will start the horrible task of packing everything up on the weekend. Will have to find some really good music to put on and crank up the volume.
At work, but thought I would do a bit of an update. The person that has tried to get into our house was back at 7 this morning banging on the door but then hiding around the side of our porch.
That aside I told H after I had spoken to security and the police. He asked how I was and if I was okay.
Just got an email, saying that obviously this person is fixated on getting in when I am alone and have I been getting looked at or followed, messages from anyone, do I have any admirers or other?
Is this part of his problem, thinking I am running around with OM. Which I am not, never have, never would. And what is with "other" what is that supposed to mean.
Yes, I will try to be extra careful, there just seems to be so much happening at the moment and I am finding today I am extremely touchy and easily irritated and I don't know why and I can't seem to control it today, even silly little things are getting to me.
Yes, I will try to be extra careful, there just seems to be so much happening at the moment and I am finding today I am extremely touchy and easily irritated and I don't know why and I can't seem to control it today, even silly little things are getting to me.
Just got an email, saying that obviously this person is fixated on getting in when I am alone and have I been getting looked at or followed, messages from anyone, do I have any admirers or other?
Honey...I don't want to scare you...but I would really be upset if I didn't say it. My intuition is usually really good and...well...
This feels dirty. Suspiciously timed. People who try to break in don't return to the scene of the crime, and the equipment is conveniently gone. Your H has emailed you with the suggestion that you lie to police and say the stuff was stolen...
I am quite frankly worried that maybe your H has someone doing this...to scare you or to actually harm you, I don't know. But I really worry that he's behind this. It's just too conveniently timed for my taste. Your H is strapped for cash (yes?), he's thinking D (yes?), you make more, and the gravy train will end after D.
I hope I'm wrong. I hope it's just the effects of the acupuncture session I just had. But...please be careful. This doesn't feel right to me, and my gut doesn't lie to me.
Take care of yourself, and if you don't own a can of mace or pepper spray, it's time to get one, regardless of who this man is why he's there.
(((Oz)))
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
Hi SD, yes I am quite shaken now as it always happens when he isn't home, I hate to think that H would do something like that, but I know you are right, I have to be open to that, it is all so suspicious and yes it is strange that someone would keep coming back, as surely they would know by now that I would have called the police and our estate has on site security and panic buttons in the house.
There is a lot that doesn't make sense. Unfortunately it is illegal for us here in oz to carry any kind of pepper sprays or anything, as the police said, we are so sorry but until he gets in and hurts you, we can't touch him. I did get his car registration this time and I now know the type of car he drives.
The police want me to ask the neighbours if they have seen him around at other times in the day.
No wonder I am so edgy today, everyone and everything is irritating me at present. I can even feel my heart rate going nuts now, the medication isn't even helping that. What a mess.
I had a really good day yesterday but today the feelings of anxiety, fear, stress just about anything you can think of are dragging my mood right down and the worst thing is, I don't feel able to control it or stop it. I can't even focus at work at the moment.
