WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

...... the point was that he "chose" to make that child--his child.

Sandi

God created my boys and presented them to me as my children, both of them will always be that and I will love them always.

This was temporary insanity when I found this crap out.

Even tonite, when I saw them both in the Skype session, I just felt the pure unconditional love in their eyes as we talked. I'm sure I looked pretty crappy as I was out really late (had to take a cab back to the hotel) and only got 3 hours of sleep. But it was unconditional love, so it didn't matter.

I'm not angry at her. I'm actually disgusted by her. Maybe that's the same, but infidelity is something that I can not forgive. This is compounded by the fact that she lied and beat me with her guilt (even last nite when she was confronted by it) while she with with other men.

Thanks for all the support Sandi. I am sorry I let you down in not busting this divorce with all the guidance and wisdom you had taken the time to share with me.

I know she is weird (it has been said time and time again). Now that I know, her weirdness I believe is driven by the guilt that will eat at her for the rest of her life. I am now released from my guilt.