I text her close to the boys bed time to have them Skype with me (I had given them a laptop, which is how I got her passwords from the monitoring software that I installed to keep on eye on my 7 year old's internet usage). She said that they were still out but would be able to Skype at 9.
My 7 year old said that they were late because mommy took his laptop to Best Buy to have it checked out (she used the excuse that the power outage may have hurt it). I know it was to look for the spy software. It was still on the laptop as it monitored our skype chat. I don't know if they just found it and told her or what.
She changed her passwords this afternoon. It doesn't matter. I have all the info I need now (my cousin downloaded all her emails from her private account). I'm actually glad that I don't have them so I won't waste any more of my time of reading that trash.
It was great to "see" my boys again. They had a blast skyping with me again. I think they were a little disappointed that I wasn't out so that they could see my friends again. I'm suppose to go out with a crew from work tomorrow again, so I think I will let them do just that again (so they can see how much fun I was having).
They were so funny talking and laughing. My 3 year old put a post it note on his brother and said that was his price tag. I asked how much was it. He said $4 bucks. I told them both that they were absolutely priceless and there isn't enough money in the world to buy them. (I know she heard and is worried that I will bury her in legal fees fighting for the boys).
I told them I was waiting to talk to them and had watched the video I made of them driving the go karts. I played the video for them (shared the screen) so I know she heard how much fun we had.
The boys and I even did a hug (we hugged the screens) when we said goodnite. I also told them that I had really exciting weekend planned so I couldn't wait to see them on Friday.
The only thing she said was that it was getting late so they need to get off the computer.
I could see her pacing back and forth in the background so I know she heard the entire conversation.
It is a weird feeling being detached. My heart used to jump a bit when I heard her voice or saw her. Now there is nothing but disgust.
I spent time chatting with one of my close friends (he was my neighbor for 8 years and is in law enforcement). I told him about the latest in the mess and my concern about my 3 year old. He thought I was nuts. He is in law enforcement and is trained to see things and never saw any sign of a problem between my wife and I so I shouldn't beat myself up on not seeing it. Also, he sees clearly my 3 year old looks like me and has not doubt in his mind that he is my son.
Everyone is right though, he and his brother are my boys and what's left of my family. Nothing in this world will ever change that.
I appreciate everyone's support.
Me 41 WAW 36 S 3&7 M 10 yrs W files D 1/9/09 W moves out 4/18 Lost job 6/15 New job 7/27 Disc PA 8/10 (started Nov 2008!) Confronted 8/11 Admits PA & appologies for hurt 9/11 Lost Job 11/13
