Thank you Tomato, JCJ and the rest of ya'll who have read my posts. Things are becomming very clear to me now. It's been a long hard journey, but the light at tunnel's end is very clarifying.
I realize now, even after all my DB work that a walk away spouse who pays for sex will never reconcile with their significant other. He's too sick to see the pain he's caused. Truthfully, I never had a chance. He shut that door a long time ago, and I've been on the outside looking in ever since.
And he doesn't believe/or want to believe in God, and he thinks he's happy and mayber even somehow (in his sick way) in love. They are taking him for everything he's got.
I pity him in a way. I am closing the window now. There's no more looking out for him. I've turned off lights and blown out the candles. It's been a very enlightening jouney. He told me this morning that his attn is sending me a letter and giving me 10 days to sign the settlement agreement. If I don't sign, they will file. Bring it on. I've waited over a year. It's time.
