K4D Rising #4

[25yearsmlc]

Kevin -

You need help. I mean it. You are out of control and you are unable to even manage your own thoughts.

Please think about this and answer me. What if you found a man was obsessing about one of your daughters the way you obsess about your W? This man had every thought, action and motivation to somehow be with one of your daughters despite the fact the daughter in question has made it perfectly clear she wants NOTHING to do with this man. Yet, this man keep doing the same thing. Wouldnt that frighten you? Wouldnt you want that to stop and stop at once? Wouldnt you go to any measure to make sure it did stop?

You may not physically stalk your W but you mentally stalk her in IMO that is far more damaging and dangerous to ALL parties involved (you, your W and your children).

You have mentioned AA again but have provided us with not a single update about the C'ing you claim you were going to work on this week.

I am going to say it. You have no desire to change because its too hard and you are too weak and afraid and a hard work ethic doesnt seem to be part of your nature. Because I think deep down you know if you if you do change and change FOR YOU and YOUR future the possiblity of your W coming back to you are still slim to none. So, in your mind... why bother?

Its maddening. I swear each time I read one of your posts about your W and the crap you wonder about I vow to not post to you anymore. You get more attention than ANYBODY on these boards even though its all negative attention. And frankly, I think you kind of secretly dig it. That way, at least *somebody* is paying attention to you and IMO that is what you crave and need to feel whole.

I am sorry to be so blunt but somebody has to say it. We have all danced around the issue hoping you would have some sort of moment of clarity but thus far, the clouds are way too thick.

There. I said it.

Everything CG said...and MORE...Christ, this is insane. And I feel like I am insane too for posting here. WTH is wrong with you that you "can't stop thinking about her" even NOW? BS!! It's worse than I was IN HIGH SCHOOL and I was only that way for the summer, AND if I were an adult with 2 kids acting and feeling like you do, I would KNOW I NEED HELP and I WOULD GET THAT HELP unless I was too nuts and used to being nuts to want to change...stop farting around about it. If your pain is so deep, why not FIX IT? I know one thing for sure....I would do whatever it took to not feel or act like you seem to be.

God help you, b/c you sure won't help yourself.
j-