Hi LL,
I've been sent over here this morning by Deb and Cathy...sort of like being sent to the Principle's office I guess.

Your post IS great. You've said a lot of important stuff in it here.

I think my BB freinds wanted me to read the part where you said:
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I don't know why this all happend and don't want to figure it out any more....seems to me the more time I spend trying to put all the pieces together of the what's and why's and who's it just keeps me going in circles of blaming myself and then, no wait not me, it was him and then oh but wait I might have, but he...pointless really and never ending. I've decided that what's going on NOW is far more important than what occured in the past and I think in doing so h is breathing easier and honestly so am I.



Believe ME, I see the validity in what you've just said, I also admit that during the times that I have been at peace with myself those were my very thoughts. But my difficulty is in maintaining that attitude. I fear surrendering to that mindset before I get what I need to move forward.

I keep saying my H has a long way to go...the truth is so do I.

You sound great LL and for YOU I am very happy indeed.
T2