Newbie (again)

[dday101798]

Well thanks T2SP, but..............

According to her, she can't because she has alot going on.

According to the kids, she can't because "he" will get mad and the will fight, and he will leave her.

There's clearly mcuh more than meets the eyes behind the scene there.

My, our boys are getting so depressed. S11 handles it ok, but I nearly had to pry S12 out of my truck after 20 or so minutes of him begging and pleading to 'go home with dad'.

It's all worse, not better.

For the record, I came here, not to her. I only texted her when I got home to see if S12 was ok. She said "he has his moods". I only replied this is getting worse instead of bettr.

I can not come to words to describe the emotion on her face when S12 just wanted to be with me and I had comfort him for so long. That look must echo the pain in my heart for the sacrafice I made giving her those kids thinking that it was beter off to just end it.

Now, hind sight 20/20, I was wrong. I should have gone that one step further. I should have let them have their say.

I just still look back upon that look on her face and try to wonder what was going through her head. Then I realized, like a fool, a blind, beknown fool, I still feel for her.

Does it ever go away?