It doesn't sound like your H had any intentions of having you find out about his double life. I for one don't think you're being mean. He deserves it!!! You have every right to be absolutely angry. Let out your anger (just don't do anything violent). Unfortunately, what you saw in the emails will haunt you for a very long time. Months later I'm still haunted by my H's emails and there was nothing as explicit as what you've described.
I hope you've been able to get some relaxation in.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
