WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

Dang it, I cried again. I am soooo sorry to read all that.

I have to get a grip of my emotions.

I do want to be there for my boys.

The crazy part of it was when I told her about my job offer (200 miles away), she complained about how I am going to be just like her dad, abandoning and not being around for the kids. I couldn't believe that she is accusing me of being like her dad when she knew all along that she was cheating on me like her dad to to her mom. She hated her dad for that. Her mom continued to wait for him to come back (never dated and didn't file for divorce for 10+ years, until he wanted to marry someone else).

Guess the apple didn't fall far from the tree. Just a shame it was the Dad tree, not the mom tree......

I still get sick about what I read in the emails. I actually threw up after dinner tonite. Guess I'm going to be on track to lose another 25 lbs....