Medical condition was something that I dealt with 6 years ago and had to have a total hysterectomy because of. Now the same symptoms are back and since I don't have the same 'stuff' anymore, I am concerned as to why I have the same pain and symptoms. I go to the doctor next Monday.
We have seen the MC 3 times together and I have gone once myself. When I went on my own, I was able to tell the C about the backsliding. However since my H was not there, the MC could not ask him about it yet. I assume that will be the main topic for next Mondays appointment.
Since my H takes his laptop with him to work I have not been able to look into his files to see if he is still sneaking. Since he is coming home tonight, I will get a chance in the next few days. He thinks that just by clearing the history that I can't see what he has been up to, but I am REALLY good with computers. I will find it if it is there.
I am not excited about H return home. I know that I should be but I am not. Maybe it's just my low mood right now.
I was cleaning my office and came across the papers that I had printed off with the text messages and the profiles. I should not have read them again but I did and it has sent me into a downward spiral.
I am suddenly rethinking my commitment to make this M work.
Me-31 Him-28 D1-9 D2-6 Married 5-06 Seperated 12-07 He filed 1-08 Reconciled 4-08 D dropped 7-08 Bomb dropped about H's activities outside the marriage 4-21-09 Filed for D 4-28-09 Trying to make a go of it 6-09
