I'm glad you are angry b/c it is good and healthy for you to process. I'm also glad to know he's completely out of chances w/you.
He doesn't deserve anything from you...even kindness. All he can expect from you is to not badmouth him in front of the kids b/c that is unfair to the kids. It has ZERO to do w/him.
You'll know love when you find it again and I agree w/John that you already are well aware of what true love is.
You aren't being mean at all and I only wish there was something I could do to help you lose the haunting visions. From experience, I know they will fade in time, but when they are fresh, they tear your insides out.
Finally, he deserves nothing from you. I'm disgusted at his still trying to deny everything even when you had proof. He was hoping to be able to get away w/it w/out ever having to face up and be accountable for his actions.
Complete coward. The master manipulator has been caught and there will be no more exploitation of Miss Sunshine any longer.
