K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I am confused. What is it that you don't get about this? Why can't you stop it?

I don't know. I can't stop thinking about her. Even when I don't mention her, I can't stop thinking about her. I guess I worry so much that she will never come back and I don't like the thought of that. I don't want to go the rest of my life without her. So it is always on my mind. It wasn't before any of this started. I was able to think about other things all the time. But since this started, I have not been able to quit thinking about her. So I try and be positive and tell myself she will come back. And I pray for restoration and changes within me. A prayer that Wifey gave me is to ask God to change me in a way that is pleasing to Him and a way that is pleasing to my W. So I have been saying that each day.

Kevin