WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

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Which leads me to the DNA test. IF you subject your son to this, what difference would it make? Do you want your son to live with the idea that you are not his father maybe? Is that going to make you love him any less? Is this going to destroy their idea of their mom?

Take these things into consideration. I know it's not going to make you love your kids any less, but think of how they are going to be with this knowledge in the future. If you were your son in question and your dad and mom were in the sitch you are in now, how would you feel? Worthless because you're a product of an affair? A bastard child? Take all that and think about it.

I can't really say as my dad left when I was 1 month old.

I just don't think I will be strong enough to do the "honorable" thing if he isn't mine.

I had thought 6 weeks ago when I lost my job that things couldn't get worse. Once again I was wrong.

I don't want to think about anything else....