You are correct MJ...The middle ground is so hard to find especially when it feels like you are walking in quicksand
Journaling...
Hubby just stopped by here... Went outside to talk to him... He stands there and acts like nothing is wrong... Talks as if all is just perfectly rosy between us... Hugs and kisses once again... Asked me why I was so dressed up (Church class tonight) and I told him once again (twice yesterday)I had class tonight... He didn't stay long and I wanted to just beg him to please come home... To please stop sharing your life with the FT... How can he stand there and profess his love to me and show affection to me and then turn around and leave like nothing is wrong? He is the one who wanted out, he is the one who didn't want me, he is the one who left yet I am the one he comes to when he needs something...My MIL says it is because I am his only lifeline to reality...A part of me feels like running...I won't but today I want to.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
