[quote}I wish I didn't think all of the time about my H but I do. I just don't get why the NO contact thing at all! He said he would contact our D last Monday and still nothing at all.[/quote]
Been there doing that to the first part. It just doesn't worry me today.
Lost - don't fret about it. Find something else to do. Anything to take your mind of H. I know it's hard but the strangest of things will crop up. Invites, movies - anything. You may not feel like doing them but just do.
H is another pillock in a daze. There is no knowing the answer to "why". He doesn't himself.
You just keep loving yourself and your D. THAT's the important thing right now.