trouble is IMP the same question about the past keeps demanding an answer that isn't going to come or may have already come.
I'd say that the majority of the problem is that I'm battling myself here...
the same ole same ole question..same question I was pondering the night I met you at discordeds house.
was he screwing around with her or wasn't he.
he says no and most of me believes him but dammit it's really hard to believe that a man would spend so much time with a woman, leave his home to pottentially be with, her to ask her h for a d...and NOTHING???? that's pretty lame if ya asked me...or perhaps it's pretty admirable..I don't friken know but I do feel the question has to go away either by his changing his story (if what he's saying isn't the truth) or by my fully accepting it and learning to tell myself to shut the hell up when I start to feel doubts about his honesty.
other than that and well h's inconsistant libido (hey maybe that can be proof to me that he wasn't physical with her after all) things are really good.
Of course there's one other problem...when things start to feel "normal" round here I start to wonder why do things feel so "normal" again...am I being duped...what's going on..
so it's just a constant battle with myself to just let it all go and accept h made a mistake and is here now and isn't going anywhere.
