Trying to stay strong

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Hey Mnt, thanks for the support! I will definitely enjoy my trip, I wont let anything ruin that for me, not even H. And yeh the mixed messages really did get to me, I just have to keep reminding myself that he is like the crazy guy on the street corner, smile and nod but keep walking, what he says wont make sense.

I had a good day today. Work went fine, bit boring but hey cant all be fun and games. I booked myself in for a cut an color friday, wanted a change and just decided to go for it before I could change my mind.

Last night went fine in person, good even. Thats the strange thing we are always good face to face. I do ok on email or text but not so good on the phone. Will keep that in mind for future things.

There was quite a bit of conversation, I forgot to say a couple things I meant to say. He talked about work and expressed concern and well wishes for my mom and family. (no mention of the new niece/nephew on its way) He commented on my health as I had been out with the dreaded swine flu a few weeks ago. He talked about his move and lots of other things. I tried not to ask too many questions, but listened and commented on the work and family stuff, stayed away from anything else. It was so friendly that it seems crazy we are in this situation. I dont know I still dont 100% trust him and wonder if i'm being lied to but not gonna try to figure out things that i cant.

He said he wanted to see me 'properly' when I get back and suggested a dinner. Is he living on the same planet or what? can we say alien anyone??

Got a couple texts after he left and then an email today with a link to a show he said he came across and thought I would be interested (relates to my career/degree) and said he wanted to show me and to have a look if ive not see it yet....