You may right. And I was considering a total no-contact boundary for the next week until the MC session. The only contact we have is sexual, anyways, so the only impact will be at night. I think sex just adds to the confusion in my head right now. One week of no sex won't kill him, right guys?
The weird thing this week is that H acts like nothing is wrong. If he feels troubled, he does a good job of hiding it, or he's in denial. I can't tell which it is. We have plenty of family stuff going on to keep us busy and distracted until the MC. D got her drivers license yesterday, S is having wisdom teeth pulled today, family wedding in MI this weekend, S leaves for college next week, etc...
And I intend to pull no punches when we do see the counselor- he will hear it all. But really, when I come right down to it, I'm not sure what good it is going to do. I'm afraid it's going to be more of a negotiation of a split rather than working on repairing our M. I don't see his pride allowing him to acknowledge any responsibility for issues in our marriage, he hasn't so far in 20 years. I know mine is a failure to speak up and assert myself. So, we'll see how it goes- we've got nothing to lose at this point.
