GMA, yeah, when she sent me the letter saying how much she doesn't love me, bla bla bla, I was able to start really detaching. Then I get the text saying she regrets the letter, and I am all attached again. It does make it so much harder. Sometimes I want to tell her to just forget it. Let me go so I can start and finish the painful part, and get on with hooking up with a new hot chick who only likes me for my new gym body!! Little humor, you get my point.
Yeah, I know - both the serious and the humor. I have had that to he!! with it, I'm done feeling too. But, until I can tell my kids I did EVERYTHING to keep the family together I have to keep going.
At times like you are having right now, I always try to do something for myself I really enjoy. For me, that's golf, or dinner with a friend, maybe a movie, or looking at some fishing equipment.
And, just expect her to be all over the board up and down. That's one of the few predictable and "normal" things with the WAS.