Newbie (again)

[dday101798]

Well, in my own seemingly disasterous way, I think we might be reaching a milestone.

"Ice cream" with the boys turned into dinner. XW claimed to not know I wasn't taking them for dinner last but tonight. Long story short, XW thought it would be a nice time to do some "running around" with OM while we were out, whatever.

Well, when I dropped the boys off, I ahd to wait 20 minutes for them to get back. XW came to talk, but at the same time OM was lurking way too close for my tolerance range and I did not get an opportunity to address anything since he was so close, and then playing with MY kids like they were his own. She sensed that I'm sure.

The only conversation that really got anywhere was her wanting to "switch" for "memorial day weekend". LOL, even my 11 year old knows that it's Labor Day coming up. So I said, I'm not sure what's going on yet. She starts going into detail on what she'll be doing Friday night, then Saturday night, and all I can reply is I don't know what's going on yet, meaning with me, and hinting the answer is no as I am not a babysitter to accomodate her fun time with OM. So she finally says "I just told you what's going on!". I just cocked my head over in sarcastic fasion and said, I don't know what I'M doing yet, I have a life too ya know". Her jaw litteraly dropped, guess she didn't see that one coming.

So, went "home" and soothed a miserable day at work and tried as best I could to get the image of that undeserving slime of a being enjoying tine at will with MY kids. Upon clearing my head of that, I sent XW a text that she is as always cordially invited to join me and the boys for dinner. No reply and I went about my soothing. Tensions were a little high as my cousin wanted me to go look at a new truck for her, and she was upset with her son for a few reasons, of course, I bore the brunt on his behalf.

Apparently later on, "dummy me" sent another message saying "I don't know why you hate me so much, just listened to 'sorry' (Buckcherry) 10 times over. love-d". The song had significant meaning when it came out as that was when we reconcilled our seperation in April of last year and had unquestionable the best 4 weeks of our years together.

So, I thought I'd let it be, but no, had to go in damage control mode. Sent a message a little while ago, "sorry for the last message, tensions were high at 'home' and was hoping to hear from you about dinner". I immediately figured taht would net zero response.

Minutes later, she replied "I was in bed at 9pm, at work, I'll call you later". So I'm figuring crisis averted? We'll see, everytime I invite her with us, she'll just text back that something is going on, sorry. This time a call?