I see the cycle that KAW is talking about, too...(I'm guessing you do, too). What I took from your "more hopeful" post was that you had realized that some of the dissatisfaction (?) you feel may be related to OTHER aspects of your life sitch right now (stay at home, two young kids, etc). I think that's a great insight! How can you work that into breaking the cycle?
You KNOW I'd miss ya if you were gone!!!
Sage
PS 'course you are a neighbor so I could just stop being such a hermit and get out with you all...!
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.