we just kept talking and hugging and holding our hands.. she would say how she wanted to be with me but was unhappy and never thought it would get like this. she sounds very confused. she says she is affraid to tell me she wants to be with me because she is a fraid it might only be because she feels she has to be with me to see the kids. I told her i understood (I did a ton of validating tonight) she was hugging me so much so tight. she was having a hardtime leaving. oh it was so hard not telling her to come home. we tallked so much and she just seemed so so confused on what she wanted but she sure seems like she wants me in her life but cant grasp that part (my thought is she never used to want to see the girls or my son so bad until i stopped talkingto her. she needs time to think.
