If you have built up some money and can afford to use it to eat out, then use that "built up money" to get both your girls AND you in counseling.
If you dont like eating at home alone then pack a dinner and go sit in the park and eat. Voluntee at an old folks home and eat with them.
There isnt a reason in the world you cant be in AA, counseling and still consult w/your priest. It wouldnt be too much. Counseling would most probably be weekly at first and as you progress it would be bi-weekly or maybe once a month. Certainly your priest could be flexible and AA meetings are available in most major cities almost around the clock. Yup, its LOTS of work but doable and necessary.
Eating one meal a day is not taking care of yourself yet on the other hand you say you need to get in better physical shape. You are a constant contradiction. Your body and mind need fuel.
Learn to coupon, learn to match the sales flyers up w/your coupons, plant a container garden so you have an assortment of fresh veggies and herbs and stop eating so much crap. It will allow you to be healthier AND save money.
Was rolling your eyes about your kids school clothes and supplies a helpful thing? No. Was rolling your eyes about your W's fantasty football team a nice thing? No. You get so angry and hurt when your W is cold to you, yet you do the same thing to her on a constant basis.
The clothes/school supplies issues could have been an opportunity for the two of you to work together. Do you think she will be keen on making it a "team effort" after the reaction she saw from you?
And really, stop telling your W you love her. Do not touch your W or violate her personal space unless she is being physically attacked and you witness it.
Your kids have basically begged for help and you havent done a thing about it. Now, on top of the divorce, being shifted back and forth weekly AND both of them going to different schools (one being in middle school which is a huge transaction) you are still lagging.
Over the past 19 months I have contacted many counselors and NEVER have I had trouble getting them to call me back. It makes me wonder if you ever really made that call or not.
Aside from the C'ing for you and your kids, AA and your spiritual counseling there are many things you could and should be doing and you just wont. Its not even the GAL stuff either. You dont eat properly, you waste money when all we hear about is how much higher your W's income is than yours and you have an excuse about everything.
Have you made the budget that we spoke about months ago? Had you done that maybe you could see the amount of money you waste and how it could be better spent to better your life and the life of your children.
Eating alone sucks sometimes. I take my dinner and my dog to the park or lake and eat there. Its nice to people watch and its a FREE change of pace.
I am sorry but sometimes you really frustrate me to no end as there is *always* a reason why something cant happen with you. And you always have somthing to say about your W when you do the SAME things to her.
Think about it. I would post budgeting programs for you (free) and sites that help you match up weekly sales flyers and coupons to print (free) but everytime I do post a resource you never follow up.
You remind me of my H - he does the same thing over and over again, apologizes and says he knows he needs to work on it, never works on it and the cycle repeats. And he wonders why I *had* to remove him from my life. It gets old. It gets old like a wrinkly raisin you found under the sofa from a year ago.
