K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

DW,

I said that out of frusturation. Of course I would not touch her or do anything unless she said it was ok.

The bottom line is I am clearly not ready for a reconciliation at this point. Things haven't changed because I still need to make changes. I wouldn't be ready today if she came back. After the way this week has gone, I see that.

I am listening to codependent no more right now.

I guess I have been going out to eat more lately because I have built up some money and I don't just want to stay home in the apartment. But other than sushi now and then, I eat pretty cheap. But yes, I could cut that out to. I actually don't eat breakfast or lunch anymore. So it is really one meal a day for me and not much cost wise. That helps keep the weight off to. I will admit by the time dinner rolls around, I am ready to eat. But I don't eat a ton. Tonight I had a $5 subway footlong.

Kevin