I don't know much, but I think I know this much at least.
It's damned difficult to take a boat out to sea while you're still tethered to the dock.
And I like the analogy because this is NOT about admitting defeat, anymore than it is admitting defeat to untie your boat from the dock. It's all about giving yourself the ability to get out and explore, to be free to see what wonderful things are still in store for you.
Yeah, I'm pretty sure your wife is still as messed up in her overall thinking as before. But, for now at least, she's still happy to be living in her alternate reality. I don't know what the future holds in store for her and I'm not interested in predicting, except to say that in 47 years of life I don't see any precedence for her current path being one that leads to eternal bliss. In the end I think you know she has to travel this road and see where it leads all on her own.
Those of us who have gotten to know you a little bit thru this site know that you're a man rich in gifts and who has learned lots of useful and valuable lessons in all you've been thru. It's time to allow yourself to bear the fruit from those lessons and enjoy being Frank again.
I think the decisions you've expressed in that post are great ones. And they will most definitely help you to untie your boat from the dock.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."