Kalni, I've been following this latest development in your story, and I'm so sorry! I found out about my H's A in much the same way, though through TMs instead of Email. It certainly does hit you right in the gut. I'm so impressed with your ability to feel the pain, pick yourself up, regroup and continue forward! You're an inspiration.
After reading about your discovery, I'm glad I didn't read more than the first two incriminating TMs. I don't want to know, much less see. That must have been horrible.
I see at least one upside here -- it tipped you over into really being done. I'm still early in this after a very long R and M -- 2/3 of my life -- and although I have the advantage of age and experience and grown Ds, I have less time to rebuild my life. Cherish the opportunities that time provides!
M 65 H 64 T 39 & M 36 @ S 12/08 Two Ds
Do you know that the harder thing to do and the right thing to do are usually the same thing? Nothing that has meaning is easy. ~ The Weather Man