he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

i really have to say, for anyone reading this, new or old to the boards, that things do get better.

i never ever ever ever ever thought i would be ok. ever. i heard that i would, never thought i would feel it.

im so happy im ok in time to leave our home. this was the home we were supposed to grow old in, never ever move again.

i couldnt even imagine packing this house, parting our things.

but im here. and im fine!

h is not the man i married. i can honestly look at pictures of us and know that man doesnt exist anymore. he really truly doesnt.

its sad, i can cry when i see the pictures but im ok.

if he showed up, i really dont think i would jump to take him back.

thats not to say that if he tried to show me the old person again, really work at being that person and doing the right thing by me, its not to say i wouldnt entertain it, but im certainly not hoping for it any longer.

so it does get better. read the start of my thread and see where i am now.

new guy or not, i was feeling this way already.

thank you everyone. really, thank you.