I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[beepee]

Hi hopeful:

It wasn't the response I wanted, but it was the response I expected. I see the positives and I am glad that he is going to send them to me and I will act as if he does. I don't want to go through the process of emailing him again if he doesnt.

Today, I haven't done anything thats truly for me. I packed the rest of my ebay items and will send them out in the next few minutes. I really want to go get an iced coffee but its too much of a luxury right now.

But I am looking forward to the meteor shower tonight and hoping that I can see it from my bedroom window. That would be such an amazing treat. I remember watching one in 2002 by myself in the middle of the night from my dorm room in NYC, it was just absolutely stunning and I can't wait for tonight!

[hopeful_cb]

Well dont on packing up all that ebay stuff.

Hey what do you know, I have the same plans as you tonight! I didnt know anyone else was paying attention. I had a look on sunday night over here on 'my' side of the world and saw a few meteors light up eventho the moon was full and bright. I read that it will peak tonight or tomorrow so I planned on having another look. I am hoping for a clear night, such an amazing sight. Quiet, peaceful and dark with a free show! That is something you can do for yourself

My H has just been around for nearly an hr and havent seen him in a while. It was hard. Its so hard to balance the feelings. I've just walked into the bathroom to the toilet seat left up, that pulls the heart strings...never thought I'd say that! Def would not have said that when he still lived here. Just another reminder that he doesnt. Gotta let it go.

Keep looking forward, that is something I kept telling myself when things seem the worst, keep looking forward, it can only get better from here!

[Virtually_Handsome]

I live a little way from our city, and the lights only mess up part of the sky. The rest can be really dark. I'm hoping for a cloudless night, though today has been more cloudy than usual. Figures, doesn't it!

[beepee]

Yeah its cloudy here too!! And silly me, I just looked out the window and I have a million trees blocking my view of the sky. haha. Maybe I'll sit outside during the night but I'm so scared of all the skunks, possums, raccoons, etc that come out at night here! I see them every night!

Just got back from a nice walk to the Post Office. Resisted the urge to go spend $4 on an iced latte. That money will go towards a new Schwinn. It was so nice and cold in the PO that I didn't want to leave! I wish there was AC in this house. The apartment I'm moving into has central air. Yippy! My roommie is on vacation at the moment so he's not even going to be there when I move in. Its weird, I won't even meet him until a week AFTER I move in. He seems cool, a musician. Maybe he can teach me how to play the guitar. Always wanted to learn. Thats another thing I'm going to learn besides French. Look into guitar lessons, or maybe piano, or maybe both. I'm looking forward to this move so much!!!

[Virtually_Handsome]

Hey beeps! None of those animals want anything to do with you, girl! I get to listen to the coyotes wander by! Usually I hear the ones in the distance, but I know they are a lot closer, too.

Do you have any idea how much better you are sounding? Talking about your dreams, and doing things to make them happen!

There will still be down times, just remember that you are learning how to get through them so much better! I'm a bit proud of you!

[Virtually_Handsome]

Besides, it will probably be cooler outside than in!

[beepee]

hopeful, thats hilarious! I would have never viewed the toilet seat left up in that way but I can definitely see how you would!

I am looking forward so much in the past few days. The whole immigration cr*p, feeling used, and receiving those emails from X have really hit me and I think I'm closer to detaching. I really do. I have let him go. My desire to see him, talk to him, email him, have all faded very quickly this past week and I'm very happy about it!

As I was walking tot the post office, I thought about what you said.."it can only get better from here" and I repeated that to myself over and over again and I found myself smiling and I actually skipped! haha. That made me feel really good, and its true, things can only get better and they are!

[beepee]

I don't want anything to do with those animals either but they still scare me! I'm very scared of getting sprayed by a skunk! My brother is a teacher and he told me that a fellow teacher was sprayed by one and she still came into school!! He said the school smelled for like a month! But I guess they couldnt keep her from working because they had no other teachers, its quite a violent school actually, and very low budget. I don't know how they were all able to stand the smell, I nearly puke everytime I get a whiff of it!

And I do feel much better I know there'll be down times but I'm determined not to let them control me when it does happen. I've learned quite a bit on how to deal with them from all of you, from counseling, and from the books I've read and I'm ready for it!


Oh and coyotes are so much fun Jeff, you should pet one sometime!

[Virtually_Handsome]

I saw a mother coyote and a couple pups cross the road one day while I was out walking, they were pretty cute!

[beepee]

aww that must've been a sight!

I was very lucky to see a mother duck and her ducklings cross the road! It was soooooo cute, they stopped traffic and everyone got out of their cars and were just in awe. I would pay to see that again!