I don't really know if I quit. This is so hard and so confusing. I really love my wife and I notice that through all of this we have continued to reach out to eachother. W. thinks that divorce after all the pain we have caused eachother is the only option because she knows I am forgiving but she does not have that capacity very well developed.
She continues to try and stay in touch and show a caring side to me even though she says Divorce, so I try to just keep quiet and let her do whatever as long as it isn't abusive. She inevitably spirals into having flashbacks about me and this girl I was with. It has been a year that I lived with the images of her infidelity so I know what she is feeling. I wish I knew how to help her heal but she just attacks now after a while and she is afraid she always will.
