I asked about a month ago, in a moment of weakness, "what do you want me to do, do you want me to file for divorce?", his response was, "no, not yet". NOT YET!!! I asked the next day what that meant and he said, forget that I said it. So there you go... I get the feeling he wants to make sure that this other relationship is going to work out before calling it quits with me. I feel like he is both testing me and stringing me along, just in case. Last night he called and said "sorry, I fell asleep... do you still need me to come over so you can study?" I said (in an upbeat tone) "no, thanks... my mom's here. Have a great night." I've never felt so out of control and basically used.
Signs that he is still in the marriage lessen day by day. He still takes care of my kids and every now and then talks in "we" or us sentences but rarely. I know I need to let go and I'm trying so hard. I don't call him except when he is at the house with the kids and then rarely do I call. I'll probably call today because I won't see my kids tonight (I have my 2nd to last class ever : ) He is very civil with me these days so I guess I should be happy about that. I'm nervous b/c today the kids were going to go swimming at his apt. and I'm so scared that she is there and that they are going to meet her.
@Stronger, I've read over some of your threads and I thank you so much for posting here. I really hope your sitch works out for the best. How do you hang in there for so long... it's only been since mid June for me and I sometimes feel like I should just throw in the towel. Life is so short and I'm wasting so much energy on this one person. I need to stop! but... of course, I know that I choose to love him and I dearly hope that there will be a chance for reconciliation. Thanks again and good luck!
M-35 H-37 Bomb 6/09 PA/EA 3/09 Moved out 6/23/09 Married 1996 Together since 1992 (long distance relationship) met 1988
HIW M 35 H 37 D 5, D 2 Married 1996 Dating 1992 Met 1988 EA/PA started March 2009 Bomb 6/16/2009 Separated 6/23/2009
