Running out of gas

[Jimbo]

I've been dreaming about her lately, which is odd. I wake up all frustrated and angry.

I still dream about my W, though they're getting fewer and farther between. The last one was very....interesting- I was taking a bath with her. She was laying on her back in the tub, and I laid over her to give her a kiss. She wrapped her arms and legs around me as if she were getting into the kiss, but then she rolled me over onto my back and under the water, still kissing me. I tried to get her off of me so I could get some air, but she had me pinned down and I couldn't get away. (Which would never happen in real life since I could just lift her off of me). The whole time, she was still kissing me as if nothing were wrong. Very disturbing dream....not really sure what it means though.

I went hiking with a friend on Sunday. It was good to go climb a mountain and DO something productive.

Something else to try if you get around to it is geocaching. Hiking with hide and seek AND prizes! Really gets you your "problem solver" fix!

I have other things I need to deal with first ... like this stupid paperwork. I just need to do it and get it over with. I'm frustrated b/c she just wants to do everything by email - no contact whatsoever. I need to let that go, too, I think.

Yup. The whole "no contact" thing is par for the course. W first told me "no contact", then "allowed" email if I felt like it. I took her up on it and wrote three long emails to her which she never answered. Thought to myself, "why am I busting my butt to try to talk with her, when she obviously doesn't want to talk to me?", so I stopped emailing her. Cold turkey. It didn't seem to phase her.

Almost seems like yesterday....the early days when I did stuff just to try to get a response out of her. Now I know better. It's a form of pursuit.

Been thinking about how to send her the financial agreements ... attach the forms ... say something short and to the point ...

W-
Here's the paperwork you wanted. Once we've agreed to the details, I will get it notarized.

MW

I feel like I need to add - something. I don't know.

If you feel you need to add something FOR YOU, then go for it. If you feel you need to add something just to try to get a reaction, I wouldn't waste your time.

Again, just my opinion here, but why are you offering to do her work for her? She wants the D?....Let her get the papers notarized.