WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

This has really been a tough week. I couldn't sleep again yesterday. I woke up shaking with disgust of what my wife has done since Sept. The lies, the cheating and want to vomit.

I had thought about how much pain she must have felt to do something like this, but know that NO amount of "hurt" that she felt justifies all the lies to do something so disgusting.

She violated our vows. She violated my trust when I asked her point blank if there was someone else a couple of times.

I know why she's been "nice" a few times, it was out of pure GUILT.

I really do appreciate all the support I have gotten from people here. It is good to know that there is a small community of decent, good people out there that take their commitment to marriage seriously for better or worse.