Divorce not busted 2

[Orich]

I can only guess because she found out I was talking to the deacon about us without her knowing. She found out Sunday night and didn't say a thing. Then Monday morning, she texts me asking how long he has known. I told her a few months, and that I didn't seek him out, he saw me upset in church and approached me. I said I didn't tell her about it because I was embarassed. She didn't reply or text me for the whole rest of the day. I came home from work late and she only really talked to me in reference to the boys. We put them to bed and I went to the gym. When I returned, she barely said two words to me, or even look at me. So, I excused myself and went to bed.
I'll be honest, my first reaction when I realized she was mad/upset with me was an overwhelming urge to start to explain myself and apologize to her. But I kept it in check, didn't bring it up or anything. It's my business.
Interestingly, for the past few nights I have been having a recurring dream. It is the same dream every night. In the dream, I come to bed and she is already there. After I get under the covers, she rolls over to me and apologizes to me for hurting me and loves me and can't imagine why she went through this terrible time. I tell her I understand, as long as she loves me. Then we ML, and during it, I realize it is my first wife.
weird, huh?