Dad's recovery has been a roller coaster ride. Tonight his heart rate went way up and the ER team had to rush in to to treat him. I was by myself and called my sisters to come over. I kept it together well but it's very hard to watch your daddy in pain and distress. My siblings and I went over the living will wishes and it's really in God's hands now.
Got through the anniversary ok. It was a 180 for me to not acknowledge the day with H. I'm sure he expected me to contact him. Thinking I may do the same for his b-day. But if I send a card, I'll keep it neutral - good advice.
Got my hair highlighted/lowlighted this weekend and it was a nice pick-me-up. I also went to a micro beer festival. That was fun, but it has become clear my good buddy is interested in more. I let the compliments go to my head on Sat but didn't get carried away. But I realized quickly that I can't date yet because I just don't have the interest. My H is the only one I want. Maybe someday that will change but for now I need to stay focused on my family, dad, and protect my heart. My bud would be a rebound guy and he deserves better than that.
