DID XH M OW or not??

[peacetoday]

still not sure if they are really M
still no M license posted
still no wedding band on XH finger..
I may just ask him if I get the opportunity

He appears crazy
mood changes so fast
never know what to expect
I wonder how long he can stay this way
he appears sedated/ he is on medication
he never took any meds while we were M
this plays havoc on his availability to the kids and our business
he is so UNtrustworthy
It is sad
but I always hold on to hope ..not so much for us..but for him
I would still go back..but with conditions

still I am moving forward
getting closer to BF
but still not sure if I want this
although it doesnt feel wrong
BF has many nice qualities and different than xh
XH doesnt seem to notice that I am with someone now
I guess he is too into himself to care
peace