Thank you everyone...I appreciate the support.

H never did talk with S yesterday about the e-mail to OW.

When H arrived home yesterday morning, he crawled into bed with me, hugged me and said he loves me. You'd think maybe something clicked but, no, it did not. He's still involved with OW.

Last night I ended up telling H if he wants OW so bad then he should leave and go with her. It was probably the wrong thing to say but I'm just so tired of it.

I'm much better on days like today when H is at work. It's peaceful and I can relax. I don't have to worry about saying or doing the wrong thing.


Me: 39 H: 39
S: 15
M: 18 years
Bomb: 6/3/09
H moved out: 10/15/09
H moved back:5/30/10