Putting Out the Fire with Gasoline...

[blindsided1]

Always thankful for the feedback. "Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself"...hmmmm, I have a hard time giving myself, anything including a break. At that moment, I hated that woman for poking at me by saying I am jealous of her and I am selfish.....she helped destroy my family and she has the nerve to say crap about me.

I am getting tired of taking the high road with ExH. He is mean no matter what. Friday he was nice and kind and even joked with me. Then Saturday, he actually answered a text asking how K was doing.....WHAT???? For a moment, I thought..hey, this isn't so bad. There's really no reason for us to be angry with each other anymore...until Sunday. I go to pick K up...he's full of piss and vinegar. I ask him what is wrong and he proceeds to find things to be angry at me for. They were so ridiculous, he could have said he's pissed because he didn't like the color of my shirt and it would have been the same type of reason...He was totally OFF. Then he told me that he would be happy if he didn't have to deal with me and could have K full-time. I told him that wasn't gonna happen and that this was his decision.

I try to include him in stuff with K. I want to enroll her in a baby boogie class on Sundays and he doesn't want to be bothered to take her. It's only 3 classes he would have to take her to. So, he doesn't want to be involved with her stuff, but can shuttle OW's kids around the county to baseball games and practices 3 times a week. He's an a$$.

So, I just said "bye" and left. I am so sick of dealing with him. I can't deal with him because he won't be anything but a jerk to me. What am I supposed to do here? I don't bug him about what is going on with K's life because he gets mean. Then he gets mean because I don't include him in K's life. I CAN'T WIN WITH HIM. And, I don't know how to do this when he is so bent on hating me for any reason he can find...even if it's stupid or made up. He got pissed off because I won't let him take K on a vacation. I asked him when he even brought this up to me. He told me that he hasn't brought it up because they don't have any plans for a vacation. But, if they did, I wouldn't let her go.

That is the kind of crap he is mad at me for. Made up, assumptions. He's ridiculous.