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[mishka422]

Yeah Dylan, you're right, positive does sound like a bit of a joke. I have been trying to find it, to grab on to something good but it's just doesn't seem to materialize. Trying.

Donna, thanks for the CBT suggestion. I will bring it up tomorrow, assuming I can even find my tongue, and see if it's something they offer or can refer me to.

Michelle - I've talked to the pastors at my church which is why they referred me to this center. They were kind and compassionate but what I'm dealing with is, in their words, 'more than they are trained to handle'. I pray with them and have told them everything I was comfortable enough to tell them. I alluded to the trauma at 17 but didn't get specific with them. I'm sure they got the picture though because I found myself physically shaking trying to spit it out. They are wonderful and so kind but they're right, this is going to take a little more specific guidance to get through.

I have to work tonight. I'm so bummed because I'd love to go home and get the lowdown from Marc about how his first day was. I won't get to talk to him until tomorrow. He probably thought he was going to starve to death today. He is a bottomless pit and eats nearly constantly so going from 7:15a until 1:30p with no food is a LONG time. He got stuck with the last lunch shift. When his cousins heard that they were razzing him and telling him that it was the 'worst' lunch to have because it's so late and take a snack. Oops....forgot a snack. Maybe he'll lose a little weight this way. He's been porking it up all summer and none of his clothes fit!