Not Me...Ever part 2

[Deep]

Good to hear you're starting to feel better Serenity.

I probably posted this before (in a Retrouvaille related angle). When I was in despair, over the failing M, my own feelings of anger, the person my W had become ... I just vented that it was all too much for me when I met with the R folks for advice late at night 2nd day. I was told "Deep, do you believe in God? ... well if you do, you know he won't give you more than you can bear". NOT what I needed though, I knew I was hurting more than I could take. "Well, He is here with you, in the quiet of your own mind, have you tried telling Him it's more than you can bear, and that you'll carry what you can, and ask Him to help you with the rest?"

I did. And somehow, corny or not, walking up to my room after, it was almost like a physical lightening of the load, somehow. The W and I also happened to re-connect for the first time after I entered the room. I was giving her a routine goodnight kiss, she really kissed back and told me she felt me again. It was among the first of a million small steps back that we are still taking.

Have faith