Please get counseling ASAP. That is not a healthy state of mind at all to be in. If you are even contemplating self harm which you say is on your mind. You need help real fast. You can also call the suicide hotline. Please do something though. You have a lot to live for and you don't need to be hurting yourself. This WILL come to pass. Please take care of yourself. So many of us have been down this road. I can tell you that I felt things yesterday about myself and had thoughts of doing to myself that I don't care to admit on here. I moved passed it after talking to Wifey on the phone. I am seeking counseling myself now. It is just a dark hour right now. But it will get better.
Please get help. You have a lot to live for and your boys need you and always will. They need a healthy strong mom.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
