Trying to stay positive w/o getting too hopeful

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I'm finding the ADs to be pretty helpful - at least in getting sleep and having energy for my day. I was pretty grouchy yesterday

He was just saying "I'm not trying to avoid any responsibility here, I will be there whenever you need me there, but I just want about six hours a day or night to go home and sleep in my own bed..."

Because I told him that I didn't want him to be coming and going whenever he wanted to, that I would actually need help while I recovered. It's not about him coming over and playing with the kids until he feels like not being a daddy anymore. I didn't say it that way though, I promise!

It ended with me saying "I still don't even know why you feel like you had to move out." And he never has an answer for that one. Just something along the lines of "too late for that now". If he had something concrete, like that he was seeing someone else, it would at least be something CONCRETE.

I've decided I'm willing to do this until May 22, 2010 - that is our six-year anniversary. I will be in a lawyer's office filing for legal separation if there is no progress, and that's when his lease is coming up anyway. Too many good guys out there who would actually appreciate me and my family to waste years on the one who won't.

That's why I like following your story - because you're actually getting results, even if it feels like one step forward two steps back... You're getting real feedback from him that he likes what you're doing and you're doing it well...

I'm glad you ahd a great girl's weekend - it sounds like so much fun right now. I could use an umbrella drink myself