Not Me...Ever part 2

[Serenity13]

Good morning and thank you Mac, Deep and Wifey...

Hope all is well with you all this Monday morning...

Mac - I will visit Steve as soon as I am done here and let him know all about Godsmack

Deep - Thank you for the quote, I wrote it in my book

Wifey - That is perfect and something I will be saying to a lot of people shortly - Thank you very much

(((Hugs to you all)))


Journaling:
Haven't heard from hubby since last Monday...Not since that kiss we shared and then he left from here mad for whatever reason...He did text the oldest one yesterday and apparently has now set himself up a Myspace so wanted to be friends with oldest on there...I looked at his page today and the first thing that caught my eye was he noted he was single

I haven't slept good the last few days and it seems to be catching up with me...Today I feel down and broken...Like one more thing and it will all break...I can feel tears burning but they haven't fallen yet...

I don't feel I am as far as I want to be...I try so hard to not focus on him and his mess but it creeps in there throughout the day and then just goes from there...

I am not feeling God as close as I was...I feel like I am in a snowglobe and someone came along and shook it all up, now the snow is falling but instead of it being snow it is all the pieces of my life scattered all over the place and quite frankly I don't know where to begin today...

I still awoke this morning and said my prayers and sent up my thanks for all I do have but I feel off...Numb and I thought I was done with the numbness...Hollow and I thought I was out of the fog that has engulfed me for the last few weeks...

I was told not to ask for a lighter load but ask for a stronger back - I guess I now know what that means.